Lost in the WILLDERNESS

ATTENTION!!! BLOG ADDRESS CHANGED

2009-01-18T00:54:00.006-05:00

The blog is under some reno work...

I just put up 4 new posts, but the URL for the blog has changed

so go to www.lostinthewillderness.com/blog for now.

Im getting a new layout and switching over to wordpress and getting off blogger...
Im also adding a few new buttons and functions on the site...trying to make it a fully functional website.
You'll notice the layout is slightly different at the link above, but thats just the wordpress defaults. My actual layout is in the works by my homie Bobby Redef. which will be updated and applied to the site soon.
Eventually, typing in www.lostinthewillderness.com by itself will just default back to the blog without any slashes and blogspots etc, but for now this is what we have to work with.
:(
Its moving a bit slow at the moment, so sorry for the delay.

But everything will be sorted out shortly, I promise.

Will

CLIPSE...and KID CUDI @ LIVESTOCK

2009-01-17T03:10:00.016-05:00

Shout outs to my homies at Skam, Andy, Auggie, Los and Hek (no particular order) from Livestock!

Clipse was at the shop today for a meet and greet to promote Play Cloths. It was mad jokes and Clipse was mad cool.
While Clipse was there, Kid Cudi came by...there's actually a really funny story about how Cudi almost didnt make it into the store. But I wont be blogging that. lol
Its been a long time since I chilled with my dudes from Livestock...thanks again dudes. I need to drop by more often.

Sorry again for the lack of posts, Ive been mad busy...and also mad lazy. lol
Imma get back in my rhythm soon enough.

Below: Clipse being interviewed by Vice Magazine

Meet Auggie...if u dont already know him...

My dude, Sir Lancelot

Grindin'

Word...lol

Im not sure who Andy was signing autographs for...but signing, he was.

"Im gonna give you my number too...4-1-6-ANDY...call me anytime." lmao

Los, I forgot her name and the legendary, Skam

Stuntin' on us with the 12's

Los

Petey Petey!

Here comes Cudi...
Anyone who's already met Cudi knows this, but he's a really chill dude.
I thought he was dope from before I met him, but I got even more respect for him now that I met him. He doesnt even act like he's a celebrity...he's just a normal dude.
Word.

LS, Clipse and Cudi

Los and Skam

Yea, Cudi has a blackberry too...(not an iPhone! lol...im playing...no one get too sensitive now)

Clipse with DJ Wristpect and Sir Lancelot

Auggie with the Casio Calculator watch that Cudi copped.
Funny story behind the watch too. lol

I got a light skin friend look like Michael Jackson, I got a dark skin friend look like Michael Jackson

Corwin and Cudi

For some reason, Andy never stops signing autographs...he did the same thing when N.E.R.D. was at the shop too. lol
Hey Andy, didnt you give Cudi an autographed Clipse flyer? lmao

Wow, _______! Dont you think its time to get a newer BB?

We wanted to make ________ feel dumb so we put all our BB's on the table...

And then Andy says...lets just put down interesting stuff from our pockets...So he drops a brush and Hek drops his du-rag

AND THEN THIS HAPPENED!
Tell me you see the nail clippers and the garage opener! lmao

Why so serious, Corwin? lol

Waddup to one of my fave blogs/stores, The Hundreds (although Ive never been to the store)

Can anyone guess what Bryan's holding?

A STUD SENSOR?! LMFAO
"Good thing this thing doesnt have batteries, or else it would be going off like crazy!" lmfao
Click on the picture below and put together all the words...
"Stud Sensor: locates wood and metal studs..." lmfao

4 hours after Clipse leaves the shop, after a crapload of Vitaman water, Heinekens, and a few blunts (which I didnt smoke), we head off to Circa where Clipse performs...

I didnt really take pics at the concert since the security guards were being wack by not letting me on stage...even though I had a media pass...but what I really wanna know is...how the fuck did Q get on stage...you can see him in the picture below in the right hand corner with the Moncler vest and the Gucci tuque.

It was so funny, cuz so many people thought Q was Pusha T, and mad girls were coming up to him...and some of the guys were instigating it too by saying..."Hey, you wanna meet Pusha?" lmfao
Anyone who knows Q, knows exactly what Im talking about. lol

The Remix Project 4.0 Graduation Photoshoot

2009-01-14T02:52:00.009-05:00

I spent the entire day at Remix shooting the graduation photos for the 4th round of participants and staff.
Just wanted to say thank you to my homeboy Seven for all your dedicated help and thank you to Nicholas for the assistance and advice.
The first round was shot by Matt Barnes, the second was by Che Kothari, and third and fourth was shot by me! I mean, Im by no means on the same plain as Matt or Che...but it is nice to have my name in the same sentence. And if you know the work of Matt and Che, you'll know exactly what I mean.
My hat goes off to those 2.
Anyhow, its been a long and exhausting day for Seven and I.
Seven now owns an SLR and acted as my 'behind the scenes stills' photographer..which is nice, because now I finally get to be in some pictures! Frack!

The only two pictures from the shoot that Im posting is the one above, and the one directly below
To all the Remix participants, its been a pleasure to work with you guys today. Sorry, if I wasnt very energetic...I didnt eat all day. lol

PS. Thats not my hair do, its my hat hair. lol

PSS. Sorry to everyone whom I have yet to respond to. I am being bombarded with emails and msgs about the photoshoots and other things. I will respond to you guys as soon I have some free time. Please dont take it as any sort of disrespect or a gesture of negligence. Ive just been so busy, which explains my lack of long winded, emo posts.

Ill be back soon, I promise.

I see you creeping, Yuri...lol

2009-01-13T04:15:00.002-05:00

Sorry, I know I havent written anything deep and meaningful in the last few days...
Ive been mad busy...I havent been home too much in the last few days to really sit down and do any real thinking.

But the last week has been absolutely amazing.
The most peace Ive found in a long time...

I cant get into too much details with whats been going on...but you can imagine what its about.

Im shooting the Remix graduation pictures tomorrow at the new studio at Remix.
The T-Pain/ Lil Wayne concert is on Thursday...which I still dont know if Ill be there for yet...I dont remember what Im doing this weekend, but Remix along with 3 buses full of people will be leaving for Washington DC on Monday to make it for Obama's inauguration.

Ummm...sorry, I dont really have much to write about thats exciting. Well, I lied, theres a lot to write about it, just not what I particularly want to blog about. lol.

Ill tell you guys about it...one day.

And yes yes I know, I owe you guys like a million posts...Ill write them soon...its just so hard to find time to sit down and write for like 2-3 hours. lol (2-3 hrs because I have A.D.D...well not really but I might as well).

Off to bed for me, I have a lot to do tmr.

Tty guys soon.

Niagara Falls w/ my uncle

2009-01-12T05:28:00.011-05:00

It was supposed to be My mom, her husband, my uncle and myself today when we went to Niagara Falls. Something came up that my mom and her husband had to tend to, so I ended up taking my uncle for an hour and a half drive to Niagara Falls.
He leaves this Friday back to France and who knows when Ill see him again, so I decided to take him, since he's been so anxious.

I tried my best to not take 'typical' Niagara Falls pictures...so I tried to do my best to capture an emotion or feeling...probably failed...but I did the best I could with numb digits.

We didnt really stop by any casinos or hang out on Clifton Hills...He only cared about the Falls...so we only hung out out there for like an hour and a half and hopped back in the car and drove for another hour and a half back home.

Although nothing overly exciting happened, its always good to spend time with family...and it was a good feeling knowing how happy he was while he was looking at the waterfall...and how satisfied and content he was when he seen it.

"Thats all I needed to see before I left. Just downtown Toronto and Niagara Falls. That completes the list of experiences I had. Im a simple man, I just wanted to see the landmarks and take some pictures to bring back to France to show my friends, your cousins and Auntie."

Of course, there are a million other cool things in Toronto...and in the province...but the time just doesnt exist...

But as long as he feels a sense of fulfillment, then I did my part.

THANK YOU @ 6 DEGREES

2009-01-11T22:40:00.025-05:00

The celebration for Brock and Drex continued at 6 Degrees.
The doors were closed by like 11:30pm because capacity had already been reached.
Thank god, Im the photographer and I can come in whenever I want.

Wanted to give a special thanks to Dame, Lola and Melanie for their company both in the car and at the club and for looking after me last night.

IM SURE A CRAPLOAD OF PEOPLE HAVE STORIES ABOUT ME FROM LAST NIGHT!!!

Without a fuckin doubt! lol.
But it aint what it looks like...(whatever it looks like that is...lol)

I was wasted outta my mind...But I was cool enough to drive home. :)

Im sure a million and 2 people plus 3 grandma's musta been like...how the hell does that boy act like that in the club...simple response...I basically know everyone in the spot...its like whylin' at home to me...everybody knows me well enough to know its just the alcohol...and everyone's seen me enough to expect the behaviour...lol...Im sure there are a few ppl who point and laugh...but those are just the folks who dont know me. Those who matter, dont mind. Those that mind, dont matter.

Yea I dance on tables every now and then, its just how does.
Enjoy the pictures.

Most of the pictures were're taken by me (which would explain the crapload of pics of me). I wasnt working last night. I was just there to get shit faced and show love. So thanks to Lola, Tse, Mel, Dame, Rushelle and whoever else was walking around with the 'strap on'. lmfao!

SHOUT OUTS TO LISSA MONET FOR PLAYING THE ENTIRE 'WHERE I WANNA BE' SONG BY DONNELLE JONES!!!

Below: Rachel

Addis

Future da Prince

Rushelle

Daniela and Drex

Pro and friend

Auggie from Livestock

Skam of Livestock

Tyson

Andrea, friend and Shannon

Marlon, JT and Jason

:) lol

T-RexXx

Tek and Ross

...psshh...

Kimberly and Rebekah

Dame and Jason

Lissa Monet and Jason

Matisse and friend

Melanie!

Thanks for looking after me all night! High five!

Sarah (right) and friend

Jason and Kathleen

James

Maria

Khush, Makeeba and friend

Jennifer and friend

DJ Pryme Tyme

Nekita

Rahmel and friend

Chantle...I still dont know how the hell you got inside...lol

Akil and Jesse

?, Cherise, ? and Angela

Amanda

Jesse, Tse, Akil

Ron Diaz

Blake

Shi

Nekita and Sharob

Matisse and Shaun Boothe

Crissy

lmfao!

fuck a shot glass! fuck a cup!

me, Tek and Duane

lmfao! this is simply the most marvelous face ever! oh boy!

If there was ever a picture where I could look more homo or fat, this is it. lol
Waddup Dame! Everyone knows I become very huggable when Im drunk. lol
Look how many chins I have in the picture below...holy gugenschliemer!

Cherise and I, before she wiped the cake icing all over my face...tisk

Natalie Caine

Gavin and Vanessa

Nebby

Me, Lola and Lissa Monet

Yea, I be on the table.

Brock

This picture kills me...although its nothing like what it looks like...trust me. If you only knew. lol

And Im still walking!

Check out this picture...check out my rolls...you can see my belly button over my shirt! Man...I need to do some fuckin cardio...*sigh...*will puts down the slice of pizza

Chanel, Vee, friend, friend, Alaina and Daniele

I just kinda like this picture *pause

Damnit, I forgot her name and Diana. lol

What a slob, I got cake icing on my face, spilt alcohol on my shirt and Im standing on the table again! lol

There could be a lot of odd comments made about the photo below, but whatever, its a good laugh to me! Im totally comfortable with stupid photos of me. lol

Thanks again Mel!

Alaina, Daniele and Vee

Daniele and I

Addy's Crib...again...*tisk lol

2009-01-11T22:13:00.005-05:00

Addy's 28 days, and the 2 studio's at his crib are closing up...I stopped by to catch a bunch of the peoples on camera. Someone has to document the history!

Below: Johnny Rox

F-Dub

Honee and Unique

Junia-T

Junia-T on the keys and Hopeton aka Caveman on the strings

JD Era

Sinotra

Momo on his BB hiding his secret conversation with his secret lover

Rich Kidd and JD Era

Kim Davis

Courtney Uno and Rox

the 'BALLIN' alley...

2009-01-11T20:25:00.014-05:00

So as I posted earlier, it was Brock and Drex's birthday, so we drove up to Vaughan Mills' Lucky Strike and bowled like ballers...

At the end of the night Drex says to me..

'You know how you always say, thank you to the staff for making Remix what it is? Well its actually you guys who make it what it is! So thank you! I think about where Im at now, and where I was three years ago...I would have never imagined being here. This is insane. I never imagined this."

lol...we ended up hugging it out on some real brotherly love shit. lol

Sincerely, like Bryan E says...'to living our lives as we please.'

Everything we've been dreaming of, is unfolding in front of our eyes. And if they havent yet, they're about to. We all do what we love...we stay gettin' it in. You can say we're chasing dreams, but we're actually chasing reality. Word.

Cheers to my second family, The Remix Project.

Get Money.
Make Change...in yourself, in your community, in your world.

Below: Brock

Drex

Bryan

Gavin and Skinny Gucci

ummm...lol

T-RexXx and Bry

T-RexXx poured beer all over Drex's head *pause

Blame it on the goose, gotcha feeling loose!

Thats wassup! lol

Drex and Stella

lmfao!

Matisse of Keys and Krates

My bowling stance

Pro Logic and Drex

yea...2 bottles of clicquot!

To living our lives as we please.

Only Bryan can bowl with a beer and a glass of champagne is his hand. lol

Step 1) Pose and ponder

Step 2) Calculate

Step 3) Run

Step 4) Kick!

Step 5) Realize you suck

lmfao

I know right...who the fuck has a bill like that at a bowling alley? Ive never seen that in my life!

and yea...I won...*will dusts his shoulders...Fred Flintstone up in this bitch!

BLACK OR WHITE (the remix project remix)

2009-01-10T05:57:00.003-05:00

I dont know how I came up with this idea but I did.

Im always thinking of odd things, so I asked all of the Remix staff to do a lil thing where they dance and I would only record from the chest up only (no perv).

I think I was wanting to blog about interracial relationships...and I remembered the song...so I wanted the video to be like Black or White-ish. So this was what I came up with.
Its not really like the video, its poorly shot, but its hilarious for everyone who knows us.

Enjoy it anyhow,

Ill be posting the interracial relationships blog a lil later on.
Probably not until Sunday night or Monday ish.

Just wanted to say thanks again to everyone who's been showing me love for the last few days!

$741 @ the BOWLING ALLEY???!!!

2009-01-10T05:34:00.004-05:00

The Remix staff and some others headed up to Lucky Strike bowling alley up in Maple tonight to celebrate Drex and Brock's Bday...

Ill post the rest of the pictures tmr...

But fuck! $741 at the bowling alley?! Like fuck! Who does that?
We popped a bottle of Goose and 2 bottles of Clicquot!
Thats only one of the bills though, there were 3 separate bills. lol

Who does that? lmao
One hell of a night though, thats for sure.

I definitely have the greatest day job and I definitely work with the greatest people ever.

*Will tips his hat

NITE @ ADDY'S

2009-01-09T03:13:00.003-05:00

Every year, Addy's parents go away for a few months and his house turns into a studio for the entire time.
Rappers, producers, singers, instrumentalists...all day...all night, no lie.
If you roll by Addy's around 5am...Rich Kidd and Junia T are probably still producing, Sinotra is still spitting and Addy is probably playing 2k9 on PS3! lmao Juss playing. Addy runs on some real zombie shifts.

The song playing is produced by Junia T of the Smash Brovaz. I recorded it and Seven did all the editing on his Mac...Lord knows I couldnt do this with a Windows Movie Maker. lol

The songs are on the album are almost all done.
People who have come through in the past couple days and will be for the last 3 remaining days are Rich Kidd, Junia T, Sinotra, Jason N, Jack Flawless, Mayhem, JD Era, Famous, Richie Sosa, Promise, Matise of Keys and Krates, Kim Davis, Drex, Carsh Parallel, Brother's From Different Mothers and I think a few others that I cant remember.

I hope y'all are enjoying these short 'films'.

SICKEST FREESTYLE!!!

2009-01-08T19:22:00.005-05:00

We was all chilling at Addy's crib last night...

Ill give you guys the inside scoop and full details later...

But listen to this, these guys were going in.

Introducing Rich Kidd (produced Comeback Season and The Last Hope for Drake and a crapload of others), Junia-T (of the Smash Brovas), Sinotra (from the Remix Project), Jack Flawless (from inqmnd) and Vince Garcia (my barber @ Mens Studio) on the beat!

This shit is serious!

ps. if theres a problem loading my blog its because Im dropping a new layout and adding hosting and what not...you guys may experience some downtime on and off until Saturday around 4am...sorry guys. add the blogspot before the .com ... it'll still run off that.

WHOOPING BALLS! yea...i said it.

2009-01-07T22:01:00.007-05:00

we get real bored at Remix sometimes...lol

Christmas is over...so we're taking down the tree...christmas balls/ ornaments first...
I dont know how it all started...but there were balls everywhere. lol

Some ppl, caught a ball in the eye and the mouth...I wont say who. lol

Hopefully, this video is semi entertaining. lol

(ps. if you dont see the video yet, its cuz its still processing, it literally just finished uploading on youtube.)

Yes, I am offering Free Photoshoots

2009-01-06T17:09:00.011-05:00

R.I.P. J. DILLA

I have a lot of cool material to post up but I havent had time to put it all together yet. So please be patient for the time being.

I will post what I look for in a woman soon enough
I also recorded 2 really cool videos today that I wanted to post, Im just waiting on the last scenes so I can edit it. Hopefully it'll be worth the wait.

Fresh, Melanie and I met up tonight to talk some business and plot out our plans for the new year. Melanie is a make-up artist that will be working with me for most of my photo shoots from here on.
We spent the last 4 hours at the coffee shop just planning and discussing ideas.

Fresh and I were thinking in the car...
Our team is all about showing love where its due. The scene in Toronto is small but hungry.
How do we put money into everyone's hands?
How do we help?
How do we build a stronger and tightly knit city?
How do we show love?
How do we say thank you?
What we're planning to do is to showcase a different individual each month. So if you're a rapper, singer, producer, model, stylist, designer, artist...whatever the crack, holla at me.
The team and I will choose a person every month, starting February.
Ill give you a free photoshoot in the studio, and Fresh will style you.
And of course Ill also blog you with a lil blurb about u.
This is our way of saying thanks for all the love and support through the past few months.
We're not out here trying to be greedy or anything, theres enough shine for all of us.
We just want to put everybody on...

LET THE DOLLARS CIRCULATE

We're mobilizing a new movement for the new year.
Who's in?

There is no criteria to what qualifies you for the shoot and promo...the only criteria is to stand out amongst the other people who are submitting their work or write up.

Just hit me up at william_nguyen85@hotmail.com or on facebook. Send me some work, or a link to it. Tell us a little about yourselves and what you're trying to achieve and how you plan to help the movement....or whatever you think would be interesting for us to know.

And to feed your curiosity, another event is in the works, its just hard finding a date that can accommodate all of our busy individual schedules and find a venue that's available on the day we choose.

Fresh and I cooked up a few more ideas, but you'll have to wait for them to unfold. I cant be spoiling everything now. If these plans are executed properly and as well as planned...shits about to get really serious in the Dot. We're willing to work ourselves to complete exhaustion...

All you need to succeed in this lifetime is a little WILL POWER. (no pun intended. lol)

Its 440am now, I gotta get to sleep, Im trying to wake up early enough to visit my old high school tomorrow, York Memorial C.I. and hail up my old teacher, Ms. Turner. I just always like going back to visit because I like helping the kids and talking to them about opportunities and how a kid from the same block could find happiness, money and relative stability doing exactly what he loves.

Well lets just hope the news was wrong about the snowstorm thats supposed to hit...or else Ill be at home all day shoveling and blogging...fuckin a

Im dozing off right now...

Ill see you guys tomorrow, sorry I didnt post more tonight, Ive been out ALL day.

Don't Change

2009-01-06T05:12:00.002-05:00

This is a song you'll always catch me singin randomly...whether someone is around or not...

I like beautiful women.
But I love me a woman with personality...

I love a beautiful house...
but its more about the interior decorations and furnishings...I need to feel a sense of character, I need to know someone can actually live here. I also need to know the foundations were built properly, no moulding pipes, broken furnaces, deteriorating stair cases etc.
I dont spend all my time staring at the front of the house, I spend my time inside.
Its important that home, feels like home.

Its not all about the pretty flowers in the front lawn and the big backyard (pun intended)...lol

I think we've all been in this same place...that place where we've become insecure with who we are physically...or been in a place where your partner stops feeling beautiful.

Security always seems to be a big issue in relationships.
I always do my best to show that my love in conditional and never changes (as long as her love dont change)

This post is going to get a bit off topic and all over the place...but whatevs...lets hope it makes sense.

I mean, I have been with women who eventually do gain some weight and dont exactly look how they looked when I first met them...but Im never really concerned with those things...its how Im treated that Im concerned with.
A good personality can compensate almost anything...
Anyone who knows me, knows I love talking and just hanging out...
Most of the beauty in a person exists in their minds, heart and actions...

Beauty to me is defined by intellect, a sense of humor, an ability to make fun of yourself, respect, courtesy, consideration, love, care, concern, loyalty and honesty. A person with values and sense of her roots, particularly her culture. A person who understands struggle and appreciates the person that theyve become because of it. A woman who is selfless, understands how crucial family is. I always prefer girlfriends with a lot of friends, because it tells me something about their character and how they interact with others.
I love a woman who is artsy and is easily inspired and is able to see beauty in the most natural and simplistic elements of life.

...this is starting to sound like a Lavalife profile or some shit. lol

I guess basically what Im trying to say is, please take the time to understand a person, to know them and have a real appreciation for who that person is.

A friend of mine approached me awhile ago saying he doesnt know how he feels about his girlfriend anymore because he feels the chase is gone...

I said:
"Its not the chase bro, it was never about the chase. Why the hell do you need to chase forever?
Obviously there is a different problem...simply, she just was never what you really wanted. You thought she was a certain person and you probably overlooked and decided to ignore a lot of things when you liked her.
Like does she turn your music down in the car? Do you guys sit on the phone for hours in silence? Do you guys ever really want to do the same thing? Do you guys even share the same interests?
You need to find a person who understands you, thinks like you. Appreciates you for the man that you are in all aspects (well as much as possible anyways), a person you can have intellectual and philosophical talks with. The last thing you want is a girl who you can only talk to about what you ate and did today with. You want a partner who can discuss ideas and great thoughts. Who can imagine and relate. Who doesnt just repeat your last words and nods and says 'yep'.
Spontaneity is so key for replacing the chase and avoid boringness.
You guys have fallen into routine and find it boring. The excitment is gone because you guys cant find a common ground or similar interests...but if you guys were more alike, this might not necessarily be the case.
You need someone who feels secure and trusts you when you say something...and a person who will go out of her way to show you that same thing.
You need a person who never counts the favors and duties...love is unconditional and cannot be measured. There should never be I owe you's...simply do them because you care for the well being and feelings of the others. So dont fall into a routine where you feel like you HAVE to do something, do it because you feel to, not because you HAVE to.
You need to be able to be yourself...like you should never feel the need to be reserved and tone down your personality around the person you're with. Thats probably a sign of insecurity..."she might think Im an idiot if I do this."
Ive been there too, I know what that feels like.
Sometimes people also grow a part as they realize that they're values and views are different. Sometimes couples grow together, sometimes they grow apart.
And maybe you need to reassess your situation and where you're at and maybe replot the map of where you want to be and how you'll get there.
I have the luxury of meeting new women all the time...I dont sleep with them or do anything with them, but I get the opportunity to converse with them, learn about them and enter a new realm of thought and understanding of being that I thought may have never existed. The most rewarding thing sometimes, is simply just knowing this type of woman exists in this world. That things I love and wish for are possible, that patience will bring to her. I take a quality from every woman I meet and mentally build a woman that would be most ideal.
Of course its not foolproof, but its a step closer to what I want and need, and a step further from me continuing to settle.
I mean if you can have friends of the opposite sex where you can enjoy a random nonsensical talk with, why not with your girlfriend? If you love art and you can go to the art gallery with your friend...why not your girlfriend? If you have deep talks about life, your problems and issues with a friend, why not your girlfriend? Isnt your girlfriend also supposed to be your best friend?
If you cant do these things with her...whats her purpose?
Is she there so you can feel like someone wants you at the end of the day?
For sex? So you can just say you have someone? Simply for comfort? To know you're not alone?
Your family members were forced onto you, you cant choose your siblings or your parents...
but relationships are voluntary.
If you volunteer to be with someone, be sure to volunteer to be happy.
There are only so many hours in a day and I barely have enough time to be happy and love, Im not going to waste of that time to be miserable and upset...the time just doesnt exist.
Happiness, peace and stability exists...but only along side patience.

lol...I guess thats some Dr. Will for you guys...

Understand that I dont think that Im a know it all when it comes to relationships...Ive just become more focused and more clear with what I look for what I deem to be necessary for relationships to work.
Im only human, so I will and have chosen some girlfriends that may have not exactly fit my bill, but like I said...Im human...sometimes our emotions get the best of us...

My friend Milana once told me, "Its impossible to find your perfect match. Its about finding someone with flaws that you can accept."

No one is perfect...no one.
No matter how you define perfect, no one will ever be, there is always something about a person that you dont like..."Shes got a great smile, but I hate that she doesnt really like reading Batman comics!" lmao...stupid example but you get what I mean. If she was that perfect...fuck...you're lucky! Marry her now!!!

I also know a lotta ppl who start feelings way when theyre partners start looking different, gaining weight etc...

Your questioning may not exist if you invested a lil more time in understanding and getting to know their personality, mind and heart first...instead of figuring out how well theyre gonna handle the goodies.

Im probably going to be single for awhile...we know what my new years resolution is...
The person that I look for is extremely rare...I may have found a couple of them...but unfortunately a few of them have been taken by others...or some of them just might not have mutual feelings about me...lol...which is understandable...life wouldnt be so fun if everything were so easy.

But its cool...the longer it takes for me to find her...the more Ill value her when do.

All great things take time, effort and patience...my ends will justify my means.

Love exists, never stop believing in it...

Im off to bed now.

PS. Thanks to Rachel, for the push while I was writing this...I started giving up halfway through the post until she msged me with some advice. All "Hale".

PSS. Sorry for the typos and grammar mistakes, I didnt proofread this...and sorry if the thoughts are unorganized...I just typed as I was thinking.

ALL I NEED IS YOU

2009-01-05T03:54:00.003-05:00

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Sing!

Word up.
This is a trip down memory lane...
I used to blast this song back in highschool.

The lyrics really speak my feelings.
I dedicate this to you (if you're a female). lol
Just listen to the lyrics...please.

Peace and Love

Ashley's Private Bday Soiree @ Dragon I Lounge

2009-01-05T01:26:00.026-05:00

Ashley, along with a handful others, but mainly Ashley held her bday party at Dragon I this past Friday.
It was good times.
The venue was small but nice and intimate...shit I cant complain, I had free drinks all night. :)
A lot of good people came through to show love.
I took a shit load of pics...but my blog is at 80% upload capacity already...(the limit is 1028mb...if that means anything to you)...so I need some hosting and I cant go crazy on the pics too often. lol

Ummm, here are my fave pics...
Enjoy.

Below: Kim Davis and Dj Lissa Monet

Taj of Maxamus Ent

Miss Brazil and I

Kim Davis and Johnny Rox

Marion

Gav...and a victim

Shannon's strange...

Jenny

Ashley, on the mic...all she did all night was whyle out and screen in patoia! lol. You kill me.

J Diggz

Tse and Lee

Addy Boy

Brock

Lil X and Lola

Masters, Winny and Bishop

Jenny and Criso

Nicholas and Niko

Its not what it looks like, I swear! I was supposed to have a picture with Nebby in the hallway so we could get the full body 'booty' shot, and then Lola jumps in and is like, I want a booty shot. I turn away for a quick second and Lola's ass is in my lap...and Im like...Lets do this, this would sure add some fuckin humor to the picture. lol...cuz you can tell, Lola aint really dancing on me...she's like my fuckin sister, that would just be plain weird...
Lets hope this picture doesnt taint my image...lol

I let them do all the lesbian booty shots on their own...lol

Sarah and Shawna

Nebby took this picture I swear it! lol

FiveStarr and I

My Uncle From France

2009-01-05T00:43:00.004-05:00

Above is a picture of my mom's husband, my mom, my uncle (my dad's older brother) and my chubby cheeked self at Pho Phuong on Dundas, east of Brock.

We woke up early today and spent the whole day sight seeing downtown and taking pics. He's spent the last month at my dad's house, and is staying at mine's now for the next two weeks. My uncle lives in the south end of France in a town near Cannes.
He actually looks nothing like my dad though...lol...I cant even see my dad looking slightly like that at 61 either. Ill post a pic of my pops for you guys one of these days...whenever I find a recent one...
Im not going to post all of my fam pics from today tho...lol

But yes, that is my mom, most people think she's my sister...or they think Im her bf...lol...she's 42 but doesnt look a day over 28. lol.

Trust me, Ive always gotten those...'so when am I coming over for dinner?' type comments growing up.

Yea, this is what I ordered...Its called the 5 color rice platter...thats a direct Vietnamese translation...I dont know what its really called in English...I just ordered it in Vietnamese. lol

CHRISTMAS EVE 'MY DOUGIE' DANCE OFF

2009-01-04T23:41:00.012-05:00

christmas eve dougie dance off from PHOTO WILL on Vimeo.

So sorry that its taken so long to blog this video...Nadia's been loafting on her authorization to post it. lol

I spent Christmas Eve with my cousins and headed over to Sav's house where Jason Johnson, JT, and Nadia were drinking and chilling.
Jason and Nadia were drinking (yes, she drank...well she doesnt usually drink, but since it was christmas eve, the heffer decided to drink a lil sum'in sum'in) and were getting amped with who could do the 'dougie' dance better...lol

Nadia loses in this video without a doubt, but she is so fuckin marvelously hilarious she wins with the overall entertainment value. the single ladies dance was totally uncalled for, but its mint!

If you guys find Nadia familiar, you may recall her as the lead girl in the Mario "Let me love you" video, or Drake's 'Replacement Girl' video, shes also an aspiring singer, she be aite...lol, nah Im playing shes sickwidit! Ill blog her for you guys soon enough...well whenever she decides to drop some work worth hearing...YOU CANT JUST RELY ON YOUR LOOKS NADIA! these songs are going to sing themselves! So stop pouting and making cute faces and doing wack dance offs and do something productive with your life...Theres a better chance of me singing the cancellation contract for our friendship then you signing a contract with a record company at this moment! lmfao
Im playing!
Hugs? lol

...and you already know Jason...lol...umm...can you still get me a hook up when the BB Bold comes out on Telus...? Is Telus getting the BB Magnum? I still have 2 years on my contract bro! lol

Anyways, thanks to the 4 of you guys for one of the best christmas eve's Ive had in a long time.
Much love to you guys.

*hugs? lmao

Being Home Again...

2009-01-04T19:43:00.021-05:00

(above: The Nguyen Dynasty. We're all Nguyens (except Joey)...none of us related through blood...but these are my brothers.)

I didnt have any gigs lined up yesterday.
A lot of people have been saying Ive been a bit M.I.A. during the holiday season...like how come I havent really spent my off days with anyone...how come Im home. How come I aint calling.

Well Ive just been spending a lot of time with my family while Remix has been closed for the holidays, thinking about what I need to do in the new year to make it better than the last.

Ive come to realize the industry is a very lonely place. I mean I know just about everyone there is to know, and Ive met them all during the first half of last year.

I thought all the partying was fun in the beginning, out 4-6 days a week, coming home everynight at 6am, drinking (free) every night, meeting new people, beautiful faces and making money...

But sometimes you just sit back and realize...fuck...this shit sucks.
There are only a handful of people in the industry that I can call friends as opposed to acquaintances and business affiliates.
Its get really tiring, when all you ever talk about is money and career plans...sometimes you just wanna kick back and talk about random bullshit. Have a real conversation about life and randomness...talk about your family and complete bullshit...it might not make me money...but it does bring me a sense of realness and lets me remember who I am...
...Im not just a photographer.

Ive been doing my best to spend the holidays with my closest friends, making phone calls to friends I havent heard from or havent checked in on in sometime.

Last night, I spent it with my oldest set of friends.
When I say old, I dont mean in age, I mean in history.
My Sauga boys...we've been called a million things throughout the years as we formed crews...and members joined, left, passed or were put away...but Ive known some of these guys since grade 2, and some others since grade 6.
No one else has more history or has known me for longer than these dudes.

When I tell you guys (the haters in particular) to look up my history and do a background check, ask these guys...they have my track record stored away mentally.

These are my ride or die brothers.
We've been together through thick and then. Celebrate together, cause trouble together, got in trouble together, suffered together, gained together and lossed together.
These guys were with me during the most unstable and troubling moments of my life.
When I lived with my pops in North York, tried to run away cuz I wanted to commit suicide back in grade 9, and after I spoke to Ms. Rosvelti, I came back home to Sauga for a week to see my mom and seen these guys everyday for a week...these are my dudes. These guys keep me real.

As a crew, as a family, we've been through the craziest shit together...anyone who grew up at Bloor and Dixie knows us very well...

As we grew older, I kinda headed in a different direction with the things I wanted to do with my life. Doesnt necessarily mean my decision was for the best or for the worst, we just grew apart a little bit, but it never changed the way I felt about the crew or vice versa when I came back.
That to me is the greatest comfort of all...that I could step away, do my thing, leave them for a bit and I could still come back and they'd act like nothing ever changed. They didnt make me feel uncomfortable cuz I missed out on inside jokes, or feel neglected or excluded during conversations...They still understood my humor and my asshole personality. lol. I value so much that our loyalty and respect for eachother never diminished or eroded in my absence...that they still understood me as an individual at the end of the day...that even though I was gone, I never really changed.
Nothing changed...only the pages of the calendar...

Thats what you call brothers.
All them other people that call you a sell out for doing you, or call you a sell out because theyre being selfish...those arent your people. Some of y'all should reassess some of your friendships...Ive been reassessing a lot of mines.

Last night I called up Anthony, and asked what he was doing and if he wanted to chill...he was like...u aint working? u aint got plans? really?

lol
I guess it is a bit of a surprise when I roll through the block again from time to time. They all asked me, "So, what you wanna say tonite?"
And I said, "It doesnt matter, if you guys wanna hit a club, a pool hall, chill out, just eat, whatever, I just wanted to spend time with you guys." (No bromance)

So we just went out to eat Pho (Vietnamese cuisine) and hit Captain's (the only pool hall you need to know in the west end).

Even though, we didnt do anything extremely exciting, it was just good to be with the boys again, be nostalgic, talk about the old days, talk about whats going on in our lives now, laugh at random nonsense...

Never forget where you came from and the people who made you who you are. Understand your roots. Never forget the real ones...

Who you are today, is a result of your yesterday.

I just missed us all being together again...

Being home again...

Here are some (there are a lot of pics...Im just posting my faves) pics of us through the years...they get older as the post goes on...The person that is always consistent in the pictures is Anthony...we werent called brothers growing up for no reason...we're on some real Double Dragon shit...(except we aint white. lol)

Here we enter high school times...Grade 11

Grade 10

grade 9

Yep...that girl that Im huggin, thats Lola...lol

Yep, thats Lola on Anthony's back.

of course the comment is 'anonymous'

2009-01-04T15:51:00.007-05:00

Anonymous said...
WELL.. fuck all y'all opinions. this muhfukkuh Will IS trying to be black. aint it obvious!!!!!!!
i see you, you muh fukkuh!! all in the club, following the black people with your camera!!! fuckin lil asian.

Lmfao! Fuckin clown.
See this? This is pure entertainment to me. This is pure ignorance...so much I can't even address it. Lmao

Where's ur picture and name hot shot? Lol

U know who I am, u said u see me in the clubs, please, I dare u to confront me! Go gather YOUR balls, and ur moms balls too while ur at it and then holla at a chin.

Don't be fooled by my smile and good nature, there's a lot u don't know about me.

That aint g talk either...I don't need to sit here and tell u all the things I would do, ill juss show you. Do ur background check before you holla at me playa. Lmfao

Fuckin clowns. I reject ignorant comments like this from time to time...but this one I adore. I love this one. Send me another one, but with a contact and ur face.

Next saturday ill be at 6 degrees...if u can step to me, ill give u props and buy u a drink.

Waddup playa. Offers on the table. Don't talk the talk if u can't walk the walk.

Where I'm from, we don't even talk.

Fuckin clown.

Lmfao

Ps. This offer goes out to anyone with an issue with me. Maybe u guys should all call eachother and come together, have a group meeting, create a new Axis of Lameness, plot it out, and confront me together so you guys can be efficient about it.

Pss. This is the last bullshit blog ill post. I have a lot of other things I've been meaning to post later on tonite and a lotta pics I need to upload as well.
So, I'm not gonna turn this blog into a beef forum or anything. Ill see u guys in another few hrs. :)

Peace and love to all the non 'ignant' folks. Lol

PSSS. to the person (I know its only one), Im laughing at all the racist comments your posting on my blog. I really am. You cant even bash my character, the only thing you can attack is the color of my skin. Fuckin clown. Is the circus off for the winter or something? Shouldnt you be jugglin balls with your mouth or something?

Oh Kreesha...:)

2009-01-04T05:37:00.003-05:00

The song is aite...but holy shit, Kreesha Turner is slamming!

Im a sucker for small waists, big hips, thick thighs, booty and a mean strut... and her complexion and dark hair definitely seals the deal.

She's my new fave after Alicia Keys...except maybe I have a better chance with Kreesha...lol...if I even have a chance. lol

my response to the responses

2009-01-04T04:56:00.003-05:00

First of all, Id like to give the commenter of the topic of the last post a handshake of congratulations for being the first person Ive called out to respond back with a name an actual blog address.
I have great respect for you for doing so.

This was her response in the case you guys missed it.

Anitah SparkZ said...: HERE I AM....

The person who made the comment...

Ok so first of all let me start off by saying in no way was I commenting to come off negative or ignorant...I was just reading what you said and I thought about what people would say about you, not knowing what your about......and that was just an example of what I came up with.......in no means was I trying to offend you & I must say for you to write a blog about it....and to pin ppl & ask them what they think...I sense your a little insecure about it...which is normal...we're all insecure some way other the other........

As far as what ppl had to say about my comment and there conclusions as to what I'm about....it's all good...cuz ya'll don't know me.....

As far as being black......
if you want to get deep with it...
I believe to some extent we are all Black...due to the levels of Melanin in our body...and I also believe Black People are the Original People...& if you do your research and trace your roots...whether your indian, asian, spanish etc....you will find that it all leads to Africa...now finding that info maybe hard due to the fact that we are living in a world of white supremacy, where the ppl in power don't want you to know that kind of thing...lol (oh no white ppl are going to get offended...another blog is in the works lol) but what I do mean by that is...the power...the dictatorship, the standards are european.......don't be offended I'm not talking about Mr. Rogers in your neighbourhood.....lol

ANYWAY...back to the question....when I said being black, I took the perspective that you took and flipp'd it on you...just to show you what others maybe thinking of you at first impression..just like you do with your "Jokes"......its not what I think...its what I thought others may think of you at first glance......and what sparked my thought was the way you came off..which is some what judgemental & ignorant on your part.....But I understand that it can be jokes...

We all do it....feed into stereotypes...and call non black ppl "wiggers" etc....and if you actually say you don't.....
YOUR LYING TO YOURSELF!
lol (btw I am not saying its correct to do this!)

As far as ppl who are not black that grew up to hiphop, lived in I don't know Malvern....etc etc you are a product of your environment.....I completely understand that...so if you say "wha gwan"...and your not Jamaican...its all good...it can be natural to you...BUT if your fakin' the funk...hell it ain't my problem...lol DO YOU!

Give Thanks for actually taking the time out for my comment......I hope this clarified somethings....

Feel free to blog about me anytime...........:)

I go by

Anitah Sparkz

http://ignite3rdeye.blogspot.com/

PEACE & LOVE

In regards to your response, theres a lot that Id like to say in response, but I think the topic is so grand that we could dedicate an entire blog to the issue, nevermind a single post.

I want to thank everyone who responded to the post, whether you spoke in my favor or against me. I took into consideration every comment that went up and took some time to really think about it and then reassess my post and what I said.
I admit I may have been slightly a tad too harsh and may have overlooked a few aspects...and I do apologize. I was dragged out of bed 6 hours too early and was already grouchy, I was also already in a bad mood because someone owed me money...and I think that comment totally just set me off. Im not finding excuses or trying to justify my actions...Im simply letting you understand my condition at that moment...that may have caused a hasty response...which in retrospect may have been a bit heavy handed...but not entirely.

I didnt consider it a hater comment, but I did consider the comment to be slightly ignorant. Like I said, for you to bring up that comment must have meant you somehow thought of it yourself. I understand you were giving me perspective, but why didnt you give me a perspective that had me potentially looking like a weirdo, or a hipster, or a loser...or something that doesnt have a race or anything of a socially discriminating controversial nature? Maybe it was just a bad example that you decided to use.

There were a lot of points that I wanted to make in this post, but I wasnt at home when I received your comment regarding my response. Anything that I planned to say has already been mentioned in the comments from other readers, and anything you may have potentially said back in response was said for you from other comments as well.

But in response to your comment about me feeling insecure about your claim and having to msg people on my blackberry, it has nothing to do with insecurity. Whenever anyone makes a claim about me, when I get into arguments with certain people, or whatever, I always ask for a second opinion.
Although Im quit confident, that Im not trying to be any particular race/ skin color, I always ask because my opinion about myself will always be bias. I need another perspective to verify in case there must be something I missed when processing a comment, issue or situation.
Like when I have girlfriend problems, I always ask someone, because there is always something that you may have missed.

I wont continue with the topic because I think whatever else you and I may have to say about this topic will be repetitive based on the comments left by the other readers.

As much as the comments gave me perspective on what I may have miscalculated in my post, I hope you can take away something as well.

At the end of the day, we're all human. I didnt believe you had a malicious intent, but I was offended nonetheless.

But thank you again for responding, clarifying and identifying yourself.
I have mad respect for you for doing that and not hiding behind an 'anonymous' label.

Another reason why I didnt want to continue pursuing this topic too intensely is because once I blog, Ive basically vented and my feelings and emotions pass over and Im good again. There are so many things that go on in a day for me that I cant afford to spend that much time being mentally distracted.

I havent really been home today, so for the people still waiting for the pictures from Ashley's bday, Ill try to post them tomorrow at some point. I have to take my mom shopping, again...so I might not be blogging it til later at night.

Goodnight...im mad tired, Ive only had 5 hours of sleep combined within the last 2 days...and I gotta wake up pretty early tmr...and its already 532am...fuckin a.

really? u think im 'a little asian wannabe black' ?

2009-01-03T11:44:00.015-05:00

Wow!

I dont know what to even say to a comment that I received on a previous post...like wow!

Anonymous said...: I agree with the ear peice at the club...thats just wack!......
but as far as the opinion on the dudes looks..or dress...I think that is up to the eye of the beholder......so to each is own..
cuz you know ppl can be saying who is this little asian wanna be black bla bla bla blah....and you know you must have heard that shit.........i'm not trying to offend you.....i'm just giving you a perspective........

Bless!

I understand you're trying to give me perspective...but who is thinking that?
is it you who thinks Im trying to be black but your hiding behind the curtain while doing so?
Why would you think other people think that?
I dont get it.

I dont know if I should be offended or if black people should be offended by such a comment...
Like think about that...

I msged a crapload of people on my blackberry asking if they ever thought I was just an Asian wanting to be black...everyone said no and laughed...and then they all said...but what the fuck does it mean to be black...

These were some of their responses:

Jason Johnson said:
I am offended I hate what "those" black represent and try to maintain. They have sooo much pride in being at the bottom of the barrel and expect every other black person to be there *bull shit* black is just the fucking colour of my skin it doesn't define me! Black isn't a characteristic I am who I am and I will not let my colour define me

Dre said:
Whoever this person is just sees a black person as just stereotypes and not just a normal person.....I really do get tired of hearing that shit. we're a new generation we shouldn't be on this shit and really does hurt me to see the hating sometimes.

Like I really dont get it...what about me makes me look like I want to be black?
Because I have a lot of black friends I want to be black? If they hang around with me does that mean they want to be Asian? Because I listen to music made by black artists?

I really dont get it?
Do I dress black?
But how do black people dress?
Are we working with the stereotype of baggy clothes, hoodies and baseball caps?
Is that their cultural attire or something?
And do all black people dress like that?
And if that is the stereotype, I dont even dress like that, so I dont get it.
If its clothes your referring to, than thats even more fuct up...cuz I wear fitted clothes...so does hat mean everyone in fitted clothes is dressing black?
I dont get it.

We're all well aware of black stereotypes...although you're not trying to offend me and give me a perspective...but perspectives of who?
What benefit does this perspective give me now that I know?
And do I give a fuck for this perspective?

But really...wtf is black?
How are you going to define black to me?
What does it mean when u say black?
Hood? ghetto? thug? ...or whatever other degrading words you may have?
And if you (the commenter) are black, shame on you for making such an ignorant remark against your own.

I am color blind.
I may make jokes about light skins and dark skins, but its all in good humor and its with people that know me well and understand my intentions and my train of thought, I dont make it randomly. Same way when I make fun of someone's weight or when I call someone dumb...I dont mean what I say, its in good humor.

But a comment like...an asian wanting to be black?
I know a lot of really educated, established and successful black people.
Are those the black people you are referring to, too?
Because really, that is what I think of.
And Im not just saying that to suck up to anyone, anyone who knows me, knows I see no color.
Every black person that I associate with on a regular basis is a working professional and is someone I have a lot of respect and love for...
But somehow, I feel like your comment wasnt in referrence to these particular black individuals...

There is so much more Id like to say...but Im going to start swearing and getting really heated.

I have a big problem with racism...I don't mind jokes between friends that understand eachother and mean no malice and as long as its nothing too offensive...but things like downplaying a whole culture and just plain ignorance really upsets me.

We need to all learn to see people for who they really are regardless of what they look like. Ill like u or hate you for who u are...and judge u accordingly based on our relationships and interactions...and if our relationship is sour, it doesn't reflect on everyone that has ur skin color.

I'm hoping the person who wrote this post didn't mean any malice behind their words, and it may have been an innocent mistake...but u should be more careful with your choice of words...especially when it has to do with race.
Its a very dangerous place to be.

Yea, and so what? I made a post about how I think some ppl are wack at clubs and have too much self esteem for no fucking reason. Yea I said it. But understand I'm a fuckin joker. I aint hating on a group, a race or a category of ppl. Its me merely making fun of a handful of ppl. And yea its in the eye of the beholder, one mans trash is another mans treasure...yea, I get it. But its called crackin a joke.
You know when u write an essay, u select a particular argument, u either create or find evidence for ur argument and u kinda of ignore or softly identify a few counter arguments and variables, but u downplay the counter arguments for the sake of ur argument to be effective! ...some of you might not have made it past middle school and never wrote an essay and seem to have been offended by what I said. I can only shrug and say I'm sorry you missed the joke and the humor behind what I wrote.

A lot of people are just mad sensitive about a lot of bullshit issues...and some of them will come around making racist remarks...consciously or not...you need to be more aware of your word selection.

I'd really like to know how you guys feel about this issue.
Like are you offended? Do you agree?
What does it mean to black?
and like...wtf? Do I even look like I'm trying to be black...whatever 'black' in this context means...
I don't even get the basis for this claim...neither did anyone else I messaged?

Ps. And yes, I do enjoy these posts. Please, I invite all ignorant msgs. I will address them all. I love having an opportunity to just vent and blow up! I await the ignorant phrases and comments.
But the point of this post is not to just put a commenter on blast, but to educate you.
If I point this out, hopefully, you will be more aware and hopefully gain perspective on your own perspective point. Like I said, racism is an issue that really hits me.

I understand that sometimes there are certain traits that are specific to certain cultures...but Ill let Rachel tell you this...she articulated it better than I could have.

Rachel says: I feel u some people just identify with a culture more so than others but I don't see it as trying to be anything unless its unatural. But coming honestly from someone who attended an all black univeristy and grew up raised in a white community there are certain cultural differences that can be "loosely" defined by race. Key word being "loosely" because when u generalize with anything it becomes ignorant. I embrace some sterotypes and take on as an abassador to prove some of them wrong. You can acknowledge these differences but The whole point is to accept and not to generalize.

And to the person who originally posted that comment, please, I'd like to hear from you what you meant by 'black'. I'm really interested.

The clarification would be greatly appreciated.

Nebby's the Shizz Nizz

2009-01-03T05:23:00.003-05:00

Nebby and I were at Dragon I Lounge tonight in Yorkville for Ashley's Private Bday Soiree...well there were a lotta people there tonight to show Ashley love...but these are the only two pictures Ill put up..
Ill put the rest up tmr...lol

Nebby: I want to take a full body picture of my ass
Will: Do you want me to point at your ass in case no one notices?

lmfao

The funniest thing Nebby said tonight

'Will, Im so hot right now. Can YOU take off YOUR shirt?!'

ummm...no more drinks for Nebby...

ITS YOUR FAULT!

2009-01-02T04:17:00.005-05:00

First of all, just wanted to clearly state I aint no hater...but somethings just fucking kill me because its so lame.

I just wanted to state, I understand that some people like to wear sunglasses in the club...maybe your eyes arent that cute...or maybe you're sensitive to the flashing lights...or maybe you're just tryna hide...or maybe you just wanna stunt.
But a bluetooth headset in your ear at a club?...
Like really now, is that fuckin necessary? Are you actually going to hear anything?
Like do you really need to look like your from the future walking around the club with the lil piece of whatever the crack it is flashing a blue light...like...who picks up a phone call in the middle of the dancefloor...like really now?
Thats why we have blackberrys!!! so you can type regardless of noise levels!

Sorry...just something I had to vent.

Ok...the actual topic is my curiousity with how lame people have so much confidence...

Like I was at a club the other day...working of course, and I seen this lame ass dude walk in with his sun glasses, bluetooth, and wack clothes (I aint hating...but if you dont look good, dont skank like you do..lol...im juss saying tho)...I mean, I knew homie, I barely wanted to say hi...lol...

Lets call him Buddy Ralph...lol

So Buddy Ralph walks through the crowd and this bush girl (Bush as in wack...no pun intended, esp if you used to watch WWF)...she goes, 'Hey Buddy Ralph, you look sexy tonight.'

...

WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT???!!!

Why would you tell someone they look good when they dont??? Why would you gas him up when he doesnt deserve to be?! You're not doing him a favor! You're fuckin his shit up!
You're letting him feel feelings that arent true!
Its all false...

How his own mother let him leave the house like that, I have no idea...maybe he changed in his car...or snuck out the back window and climbed down from the roof...who fucking knows.

ITS YOUR FAULT!

Now look what you done did?! he's gonna go around, all gassed up, on a fuckin ride, hollering at girls way outta of his league cuz he thinks he got game...
You cant even reverse those feelings...you cant say ...'Nah, I was juss playing, you look like shit."
He'll just laugh his sexy laugh, flash you the bedroom eyes, bite his lip, hold you by your waist and, smirk and walk away with a gangster limp. lol
Its true...now you have to make him go holler at a fine ass g and get rejected...and maybe...just maybe he'll get it...but he probably wont...the gas you just fed him, doesnt go away quickly...not at all.
So if you that bomb ass girl whose got some stars on your jacket, and you got standards, and you just got hollered by the lame mother fucker with no line up, fake gucci glasses, big fake diamond earrings, a sterling silver necklace with a giant jesus pendant, a fuckin tall T, baggy jeans with the rhinestone studs and some baby brown (as in dirty white) pair of AF1's with the strap all saggy...
... blame that bush girl over there in her 3 for 5 dollars dress that she got from Hoochies R Us...she gave him all that confidence.

So basically, to all the not so cute ladies who dont have standards and arent a good judge of appearance, keep your mouth closed! lol
You're fucking everyone's shit up! lol

The same thing goes for the same scenario with the genders reversed. So guys, dont gas up bush looking girls either.

It aint nice...you're giving them a false sense of security! lol

And hey, I aint talking about about people who just have bad days and are just normal about it and just act cool. Im talking about the ignorant mother cluckers, who look like unwiped ass but gwan like they the shit (pun intended).
I mean, if you look like crap, shouldnt be trying to avoid attention? You dont want anyone noticing you, cuz they'll just laugh at you. lol
Like when I used to drive my old car, I never used to play my music loud, especially at the red lights! lol

Of course, Im overexaggerating the whole scenario...theres obviously more than one reason why losers are losers...but I just thought this would be one funny ass perspective.
We all know me, I like blowing theories outta proportion...

So laugh if you will...if you dont want to, its ok...

Anyhow, I digress...

Going to sleep now...

Maybe Ill write the post on why I hate clubs (ironically) tomorrow. lol
In any case, I hope you guys all enjoyed the first day of your new year.

new year. new money. new yen. nguyen.

B.A.H. (Bored As Hell)

2009-01-02T03:27:00.003-05:00

Im gonna write a new post in a few moments...

I have this bad tendency to stare at the mirror...not that I think Im hot stuff or anything...lol
I just do...I just find my facial expressions so entertaining and interesting...I like working on my animated-ness...
Its an odd thing...but its ok...Ill admit it...I mean who doesnt talk to themselves in the mirror...you're lying if you say dont.

So I decided to take a picture of myself in my closet mirror...sorry my rooms a mess.

Below is a picture of my favorite comedy comic strip series ever!!!
Calvin and Hobbes!
They are the fuckin shit! Its nothing like Garfield or ... anything else you get in the papers. Its a discontinued comic series.
Quick breakdown, Calvin is a 6 year old boy with the craziest imagination you'll ever meet (if he were real) and he's a fricking genius. Hobbes is the tiger...except, hes a stuffed animal in reality. But Calvin thinks hes real. Hobbes loves tuna, but Calvin hates tuna, but the tuna is always missing, and when his mom asks him who ate it all he'll say like 'I dont know, dont look at me, you know Hobbes loves tuna!' ...but Hobbes isnt real...
If Calvin was real...he'd need a psychiatrist...but lets suspend reality for a bit and find the humor in all this...I totally recommend it to...everyone? lol
Even if you dont like comics, you'll love this.
Umm...this is the yearbook cover that Jason R. Johnson and I worked on together back in Grade 8. lol...he drew the eagle and the lame bubble lettering belongs to me. lol You'll see our names at the bottom on the cover.
This is my latest comic book purchase, All Star Batman and Robin, Boy Wonder...I dont like buying single issue comics...cuz I hate looking at all the advertisements and I hate being left there hanging and having to wait til next month to find out what happens. So I just usually wait for them to get published in Trade Paperbacks and get them then.

I dont care if he aint got no super powers, he's still the grimiest superhero of all time.

And yea, Im a nerd...lol. Some people smoke weed and drink when theyre bored...I read comics. lol

TO: you

2009-01-02T00:33:00.002-05:00

I offer you a drive home so I can spend more time with you even if it is out of my way.
I play some old hip hop in my car so you can reminisce of happy times.
I open your door and hold your hand while you get out to let you know chivalry still exists.
I walk you to the door because I want you to know I care to take those extra steps (literally and figuratively)...and because I just like to see you when I look over my shoulder...
I hug you and not try to act slick.
I walk away, and turn back only in time to throw a last minute wave and smile.
I get in my car and only drive after I have had time to quickly replay that last image of your precious smile as you waved bye and said thank you.

I drive away, call my best friend and tell him...'She just made my new year.'

Last Post of 2008?

2008-12-31T03:21:00.015-05:00

Its the last day before the last year of the first decade of the 21st century...

I thought Id write something meaningful...Ill prolly spend the day with my lil sister and trying to find something decent to wear tomorrow night to work...and in case anyone is wondering, Ill be @ Inside for the Champagne Dreams party shooting jager bombs! lmfao...*ahem...I mean...shooting pictures.

I really wanted to write a review of the year...but Im not sure how well that would play out, I still have a lot of mixed feelings about certain situations that has most certainly cast a large shadow on my overall views of 2008.

So Ill leave that out...but we'll see how I feel by the end of the post.

If life were a movie, then 2008 served merely as the opening scene credits...
I have introduced you to every relevant character in my life that Im hoping will be important to the plot and the development of my own character...(so far anyways) the only person that hasnt been cast yet...or maybe she already has but her character has to built, is my soul mate...but that'll unravel as the plot begins to unfold.

Im hoping that this movie is going to be really inspiration and deep. Make sure you're already pissed and you have your popcorn in hand...its going to be a long movie...and hopefully worth the ass numbness when you get up.

Hopefully, everyone that I have been introduced to this year, that I thanked 2 or 3 posts back will continue to play a part in this movie and that there arent too many twists and turns in terms of friendships or betrayals or other things of that sort.

If my life were an album, then the prelude has just ended.

This is merely the beginning of the story for me and the movement that I am documenting in Toronto.
This is Toronto...one frame at a time...

Someone commented a post or 2 back asking, what is the meaning of the card on my desk that says "T.O. (broken heart) U" ?
Toronto is often dubbed as the Screwface Capital because we usually dont support our own industry and artists. There are a lot of haters and shit talkers out here. The reason why Toronto is taking so long to grow is because of its critics and doubters.
The line is actually "T.O. Dont Love U" which is a design and phrase coined by Bryan Espirtu of the Legends League. Bry printed these logos on shirts and sweaters, and ironically, it became a hot item in the winter and spring of 2008.

Im hoping that 2009 brings a better year for the city and with all the movements in and around the city, maybe the people will have something to be more to proud of to call home.

My mom always said, "A tree by itself is just a tree, but two trees together is shelter."

Our city cant make it on the back of just one rapper, or just one singer, or one designer, one group, one institution, one anything...unless its one unified movement.
YOU and I are the first three letters of UNITY. (YOU-AND-I-T-Y for the slow pokes. lol)

If this is our home, we need to recognize that and own it. If this house comes tumbling down...its only you and I who dwell in it...its only you and I that suffer. If theres a problem inside this house, we need to fix it as a family, because our issues are internal.

I know Im getting mad preacher like, but I think its a good thing for you guys to think about, even if you aint from Toronto.

Someone just msged me asking, how come I aint sleeping yet, its 4am.

Im up because Im trying to inspire change through the only medium I have access to.
Its a worth a shot to spark a mind that may one day make a difference.

This past year has been amazing to me. Ive had people in the most random places coming up to me, saying my name, introducing themselves to me, shaking my hand and saying that they read the blog and thank you for helping them get through some of the most difficult times theyve had...im flattered and honored to say the least.
Ive received tons of emails and msgs from random strangers as well just reaching out and saying the same things.

Im not fishing for compliments with this, but someone once commented on a post and said, thanks for sticking up for us nice guys out here...that comment has never left my mind since I read it.
The more I think about the more I realize thats sorta what I represent. Although I have a potty mouth and like getting drunk when I drink...Im still a nice guy. I think theres this perception that, once you get into the industry, you become this monster, you become contaminated by the popularity, the parties, the drugs, the girls...the whatever the hell else comes with it that people lose themselves and become immoral and lose the ability to think consciously.
Not saying that Im a big shot celebrity by any means, but I think what makes me a bit more interesting (sometimes) is the fact that Im out here...and Im an anamolie.

That someone can still be cool, still be doing crazy things, partying all the time, know a lotta industry folks but can still not be a whore, arrogant and full of himself, that can still be real.

A lot of people in the industry actually think its odd that Im the way I am...that I dont bag chicks everynight night, that Im not doing drugs or that Im humble and modest.

At the end of the day, Im still a normal person.
Im just a normal person who just does cool things.
Im just a cool person who still does normal things.

Im still Will.
Still that same ol' G.

I always tell myself, fuck what everyone else thinks about me. Ill be me the way I wanna be me. If I make it out here, Im gonna make it being William Nguyen...not what anyone wants me to be, not what anyone thinks I am, not what anyone else says...
Im gonna be me the way I want to be.
Im sitting where I am today because Im me. Im no fraud. I speak whats on my mind, and Im a straight up dude.
Love me or hate me.
But if you love me, I only want you to love me for me, not for any other reason but. Accept me as I am, flaws and all. When I meet someone, the first things I try to read is their genuiness and sincerity...are you putting on a front to get something out of me or are you just being straight and forward with who you are.

If you're here for business, cut the friend talk and spit numbers.
If you're here for friendship, cut the bullshit and the pretend games.
Frauds are the wackest people alive.

If I wanna get drunk on a fuckin saturday and stumble down the stairs and yack in my car...so be it. Thats me.
If I wanna shake a woman's hand and tell her that Im slightly intimidated by her presence and beauty, so be it.
Im human, I have my weaknesses, my flaws, my problems, my defects, my issues and my emotions...Im not ashamed of them. Everything Im not makes me everything I am.
I believe in honesty...Ive accepted who I am and I refuse to lie to myself nor anyone else.
Im proud of the person that Ive become so I show you who I am to the fullest...

So I guess more or less what Im trying to say is, to everyone who is just getting to this point...
to the point where you're finally being recognized or you're finally beginning to establish yourself or even just find yourself...embrace yourself for the very person you are. You dont want people loving you for what you represent...or an idea of who you MIGHT be...you want love because of who you really are.

I will admit Ive been guilty of trying to be an idea for people to love...and Ive also been guilty of loving ideas of a person as opposed to the person, several times...

Dont lie to yourself and change for anyone unless its for you.
If you cant find a reason to change, dont change, because you'll go right back to who you were before. This doesnt mean be ignorant and oblivious though.
Dont try so hard to fit in...there are no rules to success. We all make our own paths...and we all have different starting points and different finish lines...but understand it isnt a race...theres only a track...the only thing running with you is the clock...so move at your own pace.

I dont even know where Im going with this post...

Sometimes people ask me whats the purpose of my blog, whats my story for loving photography.

My reason for loving photography is the ability to document a moment in time. I can capture any one action during any split second and eternalize it for all of time.
I was always hoping to be famous or well known for whatever reason, and some day have a biographical picture about me...Im not sure for what reason Id ever be famous, but I was hoping I just would be. For every movie or film, there is a someone called a director of photography who plots what scenes will sort of look like...so consider me the director of photography to my own life...Im documenting and prepping the frames my biopic through these photographs...lol. Sounds lame, but its the truth.
The blog has a different purpose though. My blog is your access to my mind, thoughts and experiences. I write because I want to inspire people to think and share ideas. I leave myself vulnerable and completely open because I encourage the same to everyone else. Through articulation comes understanding. In case you ever think its really wack to say or write something, Im creating precedence for you, a comfort zone, a more relaxed and open environment for you to just release your emotions and feelings without fear of judgements and criticisms. It is one of the most beautifulest things when I just rant about things I think are bullshit and have people comment back and say like, OMG, I was thinking the same shit.

I dont know how I plan to inspire change or if my method is even effective...but maybe some of the things I will say will hit the mind of someone who has the ability to mobilize and make greater progress than I have the capacity to. If all I ever do is change just one mind, than Ive accomplished what I was set to do.

My plans for my future are quite complex and still needs a lot of revising as I still learning about myself and my capabilities. I will break it down for you another time.

Ill just to end this post off here by saying, I wish everyone the best of luck in the new year. Let all the troubles and problems be left behind you once the clock strikes 12. Let the next 365 days be yours to own and reap happiness, success, love and peace from.
Ill see you in the new year.

This may sound funny as hell, but as the days go by, Id like to get to know all of my readers a bit more. Please leave a comment or email me @ william_nguyen85@hotmail.com or add me on facebook (William Nguyen). Im also doing this becasue I know a lot of people have a lot of more personal things theyd like to say or ask without having to commenting publicly on a post...so its all gravy.

So if you guys have blogs or projects that you're working on, Id like to see them. Id like to be here for you, as you have for me.

I thank you guys for all the love and support Ive received since I started this blog.

My sincerest thank you's.

It means more than you'll ever know.

My hat goes off to you guys...it really would not be the same without you.

Ill be counting in the New Year with all of you guys in mind.

*Will tips his hat.

ps. sorry for any typos or grammatical errors, I didnt proofread this post.

BLACKBERRYs vs. iPhones

2008-12-31T00:41:00.008-05:00

First of all, I think Im gonna go fix my 7th meal of the day...lol

Too bad eating isnt a qualification you could put on your resume...like

"How would you benefit our company?"
"Well, I would be a great employee because Im a really good problem solver. For example, whenever Im hungry, I am always able to find something to eat..."
"..."
(awkward silence)

Seven says, if I continue eating at this rate, I could be a plus size model for men...thanks asshole.
lol

Ok, on to the topic at hand.
I wanted to talk to you about blackberrys and iPhones.
Of course this review will be extremely bias since I own a blackberry...so expect no equality or accuracy or even any legitimacy in the words that I type.

I woulda posted a pic of someone holding an iPhone...except...I dont know anyone who owns an iPhone who is proud enough to have a picture taken with it...lol.
People who have iPhones are like people who are sleeping with ugly hoes and deny all accusations about their affairs...lol (im exaggerating)

Ok, lets list reasons why Blackberrys are the fuckin shit!

1) BLACKBERRY MESSENGER - its basically like MSN...except a kajillion times better. Imagine, super fast msging. It tells you if the msg you sent was delivered, and if the other person has read it. You can send voice clips and pictures...you can have conferences, and it has buttons (excluding the Storm) and you can type without looking...(well at least I can). You will never feel lonely with BBM. Its a good way to chop girls? "Yo shawty, whats your PIN like? Can I PIN you sometime?"

PIN is the code number assigned to your individusal phone for BBM, in case someone didnt know. Msging someone on BBM is called PINNING. lol. Thats the lingo.

umm...thats the only and best thing about BBs

Bad things about BBs?

1) IT WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE! you know how many ppl get into car accidents, walk into trees, spill food, break up with their bf/gfs, dont dance at clubs...become zombies?
...I cant even live without the BB...whenever my BB's broke down or I lost it, I felt super depressed...like life wasnt worth living anymore.
It aint called a crackberry for no reason...
Like I usually rush off phone conversations because I know 10 ppl musta PINNED me while I was on the phone, and when I get off theres like a dozen BBM notification chimes.
Anyone who has a BB feels the same way.
Text msgs are totally wack to me now cuz theyre so slow and they dont deliver in the same orders...bah.

ok...on to iPhones...lets discuss why iPhones are cool.

1)...

very well then...

lets discuss their bad points...

1) they suck? are you just gonna surf the internet all day? play music and video games all day?
and get greasy finger marks on ur screen and put it against ur face?

I mean you can do all those things on BB too...and you get BBM!!!

You cant really chill at a club holding your iPhone and look like you're cool. Because you're probably doing 'isolated' type things...like if your texting, youre probably sitting there for awhile waiting for your text to go through and then waiting for them to respond...
or playing stupid videos...we all know you aint communicating...at least if you're sitting alone and being anti social or standing by yourself, at least be communicating with someone in the cyber world. Or make it look like your dealing with some business with someone on the other side. lol

Blackberrys are the international standard for coolness. lmao...
(how bias am I huh?)

...

This post is boring me now...and I wanna eat again...

BB rocks, iPhones suck...

I know so many ppl who have sold their iPhones and are getting BBs now...saying Im bored...

I should get a fuckin sponsorship from BB for this post...fuckin a.

Trust me, get a BB and your life will change! I guarantee it!!! Please, anyone who has a BB, please say something so the non BB users can understand the power of the BB!

Get a Blackberry and step into the darkside.... >:-)

anyways...Imma go make me some grub.

ps. i aint really hating on ppl with iPhones...or people that dont have a BB or an iPhone...Im juss being a dorkface. We all look for different things in our functions...this post is for anyone who got an iPhone for christmas...sucks to be you...unless you know no one with a BB, then get an iPhone, because BBM serves no purpose if you have no one to PIN. *will shrugs

Come on team! Lets brainstorm!

2008-12-29T20:53:00.004-05:00

Im extremely bored and its so windy outside you woulda thought u was in Kansas...

Ummm...can someone give me a topic...Ill write it...
ummm...

Have I already mentioned that this upcoming year is the year of the Ox on the Chinese calendar? And Im an Ox...so this is supposed to mean its my bad luck year...

In case you didnt already know, Chinese and Vietnamese culture and traditions are very similar...
So lets hope 2009 and wont kill me...Im still waiting on the next Batman movie...

Tisk...give me a topic somebody! Watch me get a topic and not write anything and just read Batman comics all night and watch sitcoms and re-runs of Entourage with my sister.

Im a loser by choice!

Hey, does anyone think I get way too drunk on the job all the time? Like Im always drunk at work (club photography)...if you didnt know better, you probably thought I was just getting paid to drink. Like, Im usually more fuct than the people out celebrating their bdays...and the best part, I didnt spend a single penny! I WIN BITCHES! LMAO

Im always surprised that the promoters/employers for these events let me drink so damn much. lol...well at least I still give them 300-500 pics at the end of the night. lol...and I make sure to get the pics of all the pretty girls before I lose my vision. Yea...works hard.
I dont even know what a 9-5 feels like anymore. I wake up everyday like its the Christmas holidays. My 9 hours a weekend make me just as much as I made working 40 hrs a week before...yep...so where should my next tatt be? My chest/cleavage area? my stomach? ribs? my forearm all the way to my wrist, back, left arm or calves? ...

Man...Im way too bored...right now Im talking as if Im talking to someone...but theres no one responding...well not until I read the comments anyways...well Im gonna go do something that makes me feel less loser...Shit!!! I GOTTA GO PICK UP MY SISTER FROM THE THEATRES NOW!

FUCK! BRB

NO HOMO!

2008-12-29T19:06:00.009-05:00

This is frickin hilarious to me...

Look at the next 9 photographs and think about they all have in common...Im being serious...Besides them being Hollywood Heart throbs...(no homo). lol

SUPER PAUSE for me even spending time googling all these names and having to look at all the pictures...*Will cringes. lol

Now what did those 9 people have in common with me...???

...well this is definitely not a great picture of me for this example...or maybe even a great picture at all...the only purpose this picture serves is for a good laugh. lol

???

All good looking dudes (no homo) have small eyes...I WIN BITCHES!!!

lmfao!!!

The Past Year's Review and The New Year's Resolutions

2008-12-29T02:55:00.025-05:00

Hmmm....
Ive been loafting on this post a lot because I still dont really know what to feel...

The entire year has been great to me...and I should be struck by lighting if I said otherwise.
I guess, Ive only been feeling weird for the past few weeks...buts its unfair for me to base my thoughts of the year on my feelings in the past few weeks.

Ive spent a lot of this year just trying to understand the person that I am trying to find peace and happiness, stability and sanity, love and comfort.

I didnt find everything, but I am thankful for what I did.

I just wrote an entire list of thank you's...But I just deleted it all...Its too difficult to name everyone Ive met this year and list their contribution to my life.

I even thanked people you didnt expect me to.
To everyone who Im thankful for, they know...because I often tell them...on blackberry. lol

Fuck it, here's my list.

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I wont even lie, one of the biggest contributors to this year is Addy, thank you for getting me off my couch last January, and making me apply for Remix. Thanks for believing in me and continuously pushing me to do better.

Im going to continue with a list of thank you's now to the people who made a really big impact on me...If I leave out any names, its no disrespect whatsoever. And the order is totally irrelevant.

Thank you to Bryan, Gav, Drex, T-RexXx, Noah, Future, Brock and Amanda for all that they've done for me inside that building in the first 6 months of the year, those 6 months were probably the greatest 6 months Ive ever known...But the special thanks goes out to Bryan for teaching me about a creative mind and giving me the ability to think for myself and allowing me to be me under his wing.
Thank you to the team - Addy, DJ Wristpect, Sir Lancelot and Fresh for dragging me out 7 days a week for months to meet every damn person in the city.
Thank you to Drake for shouting me out on 'Im Still Fly' and making me the coolest photographer! lol
Thank you to Ollie for giving me the opportunities to work beside you on all those projects.
Thank you to Q, Peter, Ronnice, Candice, John, Howie, Vedran, Trevor, Merv, Jenn Curlz, Matt, Matt, Matt G and the rest of Goodfoot/ United Front gang for always giving me a place to visit on Tuesdays and park on Saturday nights.
Thank you to the Livestock family - Skam, Andy, Los, Hek and Auggie for all the clubbing adventures and free vitamin water!
Thank you to Mikey, Jmac, Greg, Kev and Avi and the rest of Inquiringmind.ca for putting me on *pause
Thank you to Corwin and P-Plus for always looking out for me and making sure Im good.
Thank you to Safari for just being a cool dude.
Thank you to DJ Lissa Monet for always making me feel special when you see me.
Thank you to Spexx and Dre for always putting that paper in my hand.
Thank you to Nebby for being a great friend and always just being straight up even if you'll hurt my feelings...asshole.
Thank you to Milana for all the positivity during some of my worst moments and for some of the greatest advice Ive ever heard.
Thank you to Nadia for your 'awethome' sense of humor, your bubbliness, being yourself and letting your guard down and helping me end the year off on a lighter note. "Like Puss, like who are you? like you know what I mean?"
Thank you to Joy...for the joy? and all of the CD's and laptop adapters! lol lol
Thank you to Justin Lowe for always being a total idiot and just always messaging me with random nonsense.
Thank you to Lee for trying to find me a job...(Im still unemployed). lol
Thank you to Falesha for a wonderful summer and a handful of memories.

Thank you to all the new friendships Ive gained - Rich Kidd, Junia T, Sonat, F-Dub, Shakes, Crooks, Alejandro aka Ale, Johnny, DJ Tilt, Courtney, Linda, Alina, Tona, Harold, Shanda, Suzannah, Ashley, Keesha, Sabina, Courtne, Crystal, Heinz, Duane B, Mensa, Agile, Wan, Jenny Saliba, Will, Chevy, Sean, Rawk, Ozzy, Jason F, Air King, Thomas, Amber, Natalie H, Bjorn, Cola, Chantle, Karla Gillian, Giselle, Che, Addis, James Lowe, Lo, Kitt, Landlord, Melanie, Mensa, Momo, JD Era, Kim Davis, Ayah, Marion, Mila, Caitlin, Vili, Catriona, Eva, Kathleen, Azuka, Bobby, Natalie Caine, Savs, JT, Trisha, Ace, Mahsa, Rachel, Nekita, Sharob, Paulyne, Jenn N, Kayla, Sarina, Tse, Jesse, Ron, Blake, Unique, Lloydia, Sarah, Daniele, Diana, Vee, Stacy, Sam Wong, Sarina, Janet, Winny, Ken Masters, Bishop, Soze, and BP.

...Hope I didnt forget too many names...but those are just the people I met this year.

Thank you to everyone else whose been consistent in my life.

Thank you to Lola for just always loving me and supporting so much and helping me with almost everything all the time.
Thank you to Criso for being such an awesome sister to me and just for always understanding me.
Thank you to Jason Johnson for never changing through the years.
Thank you to Niko for all the randomness. lol
Thank you to Jerome and Taj for letting me work some of the craziest events.
Thank you to Anthony, Gerald, John, Jay, Lassi and Joey for never bailing on me...mad love for you dudes.
Thank you to my cousins, Khanh, Peter, Fred, Kevin, Duy Nanh and Jimmy for the love and always watching out for me and Mike.
Thank you to Seven, Vince and Moe for always making me feel filipino...lol. Just thanks for always being my brothers.
Thank you to Val, Julia, Emmy and Ceejay for being friends with eachother through all these years, your love for eachother gives me a lot of hope...its weird, but you guys know what I mean.
Thank you to Mon for always yelling at me and keeping me in line and never letting me get to gassed. Thanks for being my bestfriend.
Thank you to my brother, Mike for always filling up my gas tank and parking my car for me on the weekends...lol
Thank you to my sister, Judy who has learned to trust me and come to me for guidance.
Thank you to my brothers, Steve and Jack for always making me like Im still a role model.
Thank you to Dame for everything, you know my thanks will never be enough. Just thank you for always sitting on the phone while I vent and yell and cuss! lol...and we know I do that quite often. Thanks for not laughing at my mom when she cant speak English and for understanding that she still doesnt know your name after all these years...and that she still calls you honey, and refers to you as the black guy. lmfao

I know Im gonna get a couple phone calls tmr or blackberry msgs saying I forgot some people...lol
Lets hope I didnt forget you on purpose. Eeks!

Thats a lotta thank you's...shit. lol

Hopefully that wasnt too boring.
Obviously I have mad love and respect for everyone I named...and I only named a thing or two of what Im thankful for, but you know I cant really break down and tell you every single thing...especially on the blog. lol

I didnt really write a review, more of just a bunch of thank you's...

...its almost 5am now...Should I still write my new years resolutions?

...ahhh well...

Ill just do it now, cuz I dont know when Ill be free next.

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New Year's Resolution...or just goals...whatever..unless they're the same

1) To only work where it makes sense. Like no stupid call center jobs or anything. If it aint for the community, if it aint for youth, if it aint about art, if I cant be creative, I aint doing it.
2) Be better to my mom
3) Make more time for the people who truly care about me.
4) Cut off all the frauds around me.
5) Graduate from school.
6) NO SEX until I find someone worthy of caring for...Yea, I said it! lmfao!
That mighta been a bad thing to make public for several reasons...but Ill say it...Dont get me wrong, I love sex, but Id rather make love. No lameness intended, but why take what you like, when you can take what you love. I only want someone to care about...I have no issues with people who emotionless sex, I have just come to realize, emotionless kinda of goes against my values...you may say, you're young, Will. Fuck all you can! Havent you ever just gone to a buffet, and just not eaten anything? Havent you ever had just so much money, go to the mall and not wanna buy anything?
Yea thats how I feel about women...there are just so much...and so many are so wack. When there is such an abundance and so much option...There's no need to choose. Im gonna take my time. Im only going home with the best. Everything else, Ill leave to the rest for the commoners. And of course, the word best is relative.
For me, its about quality over quantity, but to each their own. I guess some people just like to collect stamps.

Ive created my standards...and if you dont meet them, you can go to the warehouse. Sorry, but Im only going for what I feel deserves to be at the window of this shop...none of that, at the back of the store in the spinning sale rack with red stickers, loose threads and some tears in it bullshit. I aint tryna get no manafacture defect discounts. I want only what deserves to be in the window and Im down to pay the full price.

I might be window shopping for awhile...but its cool...at least Ill have what I want...(or at least what I think Ill want.)
The more successful I become, the more I realize I dont need sex to keep me happy...and that my friend is a powerful thing. My money keeps me happy, my friends keep me happy, my family keeps me happy, my constant hunger for more keeps me happy.
Well, actually Im lying, theres a woman I sleep with every weekend from Friday to Sunday. Most of you guys know her, Im sure she sleeps with a lotta people too...but its ok...I still fucks with her. Imma reveal her, and this is the truth, no inch of a lie.

Her name is Elizabeth...

Queen Elizabeth...lol...(FYI for my non Canadians - Canadian money has a picture of the Queen on it...)

Lame joke, but it gets me everytime.

The thing with me is...I attract a lot more nicer girls than I do hoes. And I cant be sleeping around with good girls...because I might break their hearts and scar them for life. And I cant sleep around with hoes...cuz they nasty. So Im just gonna do my thing til I find someone worth my time, my thoughts, my care and my efforts.

I can just imagine alotta dudes hating me for this one because I may have accidentally raised the bar for dudes to get girls...lol. *Will shrugs. lol

Like I told y'all in a couple posts back, Im all about the Premium P! For me its just sex...for them its sex and status! lmao. Thats right, I said it. Not being cocky, just being real. Ive had this talk with many people in the industry...We aint all gassed, we're just being real. lol (fuck, I cant wait to get cussed for that remark...lmao)
Hey, hate me if you want, but Im jus saying what a lotta ppl just dont have the balls to say. You guys already know who I am...if you have to question my character, y'all aint know me.

Call me gay, stupid, dumb, wack or whatever for not sleeping with the chick you seen me talking to at the club...
But Im working on my path to enlightenment, theres a lot more to life for me then bussing a nut...it feels great and all dont get me wrong...but that all ends...and you're just back to feeling empty again...both literally and figuratively.

Like I said, give me a woman to love, care for, be with, holds hands with, hug, kiss, embrace, look after, to look forward to, to make feel special, to make me laugh, entertain me, worry about me and look out for me...thats what I want...I aint stopping til I get what I want

!!!

Hopeless romantics are in for 2009...you aint know?

lol

Anyhow, off to sleep.
I guess my last resolution should be stop going to bed just before sunrise? lol

HAPPY NEW YEARS YOU GUYS!

and thank you to everyone who has been reading, commenting, and supporting my blog for the past few months...or since yesterday...lol
the work and thought I put into this blog would not be the same if I didnt have your support. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Thanks for making me feel like a somebody.
Thanks for letting me write and understanding the person that I am, flaws and all.

2009 is Two Thousand and Mine.

THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON ...review...ish..kinda sorta..

2008-12-29T00:01:00.004-05:00

Ok, I just got home from watching Benjamin Button...

:)

The movie is beautifully shot with a lotta really artsy dramatic scenes and with a ton of quotables. I wont try to get all Siskel and Roeper on you, but the movie was fantastic. It's full of emotions, happiness, sadness and a lot of...fuck, that sucks...

I love movies that can just suspend my sense of belief for awhile, take me to another world and just let me really feel like Im there...I woulda felt like Im there, except for the constant vibrations from the blackberry...tisk...

Here's my fave quote:

"We're meant to lose the ones we love.
How else would we know how important they are?"

...think about that one...

and go watch the damn movie.

Im gonna go throw some chicken wings in the oven and come back and hopefully write my year review and new years resolution.

Be back in a few.

Bummer...

2008-12-28T19:11:00.004-05:00

So if Im posting right now...

It means Im not in New York City...we all overslept and didnt wake up til almost noon...boo
What a waste...Im so depressed now, I think all 5 of us have been depressed all day about not heading off to New York...well you know what that means! Im gonna visit Adam aka A-Bomb tmr and book my next tatt appt. Dont know what to do...I wanna get started on my left arm, finish up my right arm and pull it down to my wrist, finish my back, do my stomach and maybe even my ribs...fruckin a.

I dont know Ill go see Adam tmr, and see what he says.

ummm...

So Im gonna leave a ziplock bag in my bathroom all the time now. I need to zip up my blackberry while Im in the shower so I can continue convos. Its mindboggling to be in the shower and hear the 'sonar' chime go off every 3 seconds. And sometimes the conversations get really interesting (in a non perv way) just before I hit the shower. So yes, Ive solved all my problems. We all know I get withdrawals when Im away from my BB.

Snap, I was gonna write more, buy Imma go play third wheel with Dame and his wifey and go watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button!

Since every other friend sold me out!!!

"Like Puss, like who are you? Like you know what I mean?" (inside joke)

In the meantime, this is my new funny shit! Watch it with a pantyliner on...you will piss your self.

Thanks to Nads and Savs for putting me on this shit! This is pure gold!

LMFAO!!!

2008-12-28T05:34:00.002-05:00

shieettt! What I would look like if I grew my hair out, and had facial hair. lol

I took this picture on my webcam like 5 years ago, and edited it on photoshop...I didnt know how to you use any of the tools properly...as you can tell...it looks so fake...but its a good fuckin laugh anyhow. lol

Whatever, Im going to sleep...its frackin 5:36am...

NYC BOUND?

2008-12-28T04:55:00.004-05:00

First of all, happy birthday to my best friend and brother, Dame. You're getting old, but dont worry, you'll be collecting your pension before you know it!

So we're supposed to be leaving for NYC in the next few hours...

The only problem is...we didnt rent the car yet!
lol
Which happens to be the biggest problem ever. We totally underestimated the busy-ness of this weekend and figured we could just do it last minute...all the SUV's are sold out in the city...tisk.

So Seven and I are gonna drive back out to the airport tomorrow morning and hope we can get an SUV...so hopefully we can still go...and if not...I guess Im just gonna use the NYC money for another tattoo...lmao

I should probably sleep now right? In case we head out to NYC tmr? ...I mean later?

NOSTALGIA @ 6 DEGREES

2008-12-27T20:06:00.039-05:00

"Blame it the goose, gotcha feelin' loose
Blame it on petrone, gotcha in the zone

BLAME IT ON THE A-A-A-A-A-A-A-ALCOHOL!

Blame it on vodka, blame it on the henny,
Blame it on the blue top, gotcha feelin dizzy."

I wont even front and let you wait til you get to the end of the post to see pics of me drunk. I was fuckin wasted out of my fuckin mind last night! SO FAR GONE!
Its nice being a photographer...I just gotta walk around with a cup, and everyone fills up my cup as I make my way around the booths in the club. lol.
I dont even bring money to the club anymore...like fuckin ever!

The music was probably great, but I have no idea, I was in my own world last night and all I could hear was a high pitch frequency in my brain! lol Fuckin awthomeneth (awesome with a lisp)!

I need to toss out a few thank you's, first to Duane and T-RexXx for throwing an awesome party, to Nadia and Savannah for the company, Gavin, Drex, Azuka, Tyson, Lo, and whoever else that kept filling my cup through the night and almost making me go blind. Nebby for stealing my cup of henny and had me chasing her in circles around the club til I got dizzy and gave up. Lola for looking after me when I was smashed on the couch. Niko for being...lmao! (you know what Im talking about...*pause). T-RexXx for telling everyone I was the coolest photographer ever in the washroom while I was barfing and everyone else was cringing. Jason Johnson for driving me and the girls home in my own car, getting me home at 6am, leaving my car lights, killing my car battery, and leaving only 4kms worth of gas left in the tank (I have a measuring thing in the car that tells me how many kms of gas I have left)...

I yacked twice in the club, and once more in the car...I came home and knocked out...shoes on and all...oddly only my jeans were off, but my boots were still on...so now Im wondering, did I take off my pants and then put my boots back on for no reason? like a fuckin clown?

*that didnt really happen, but imagine it did? lmao

and here's my new theme song for the club.

Below: Nadia and Savannah, my fave hefty heffers.
Waddup! The best company a drunk donkey could have...thanks for laughing at all my jokes in the car even when they werent funny...

"Can I get yo numbah? Can I have it? Can I? Can I get your digits?"

I dont know the girl in the pic below on the left, but she was actually on my blog on her BB just before I took this picture. Mad love!

Sarah and friend

Safari and Gavin

Waddup Hakeem? (middle)

Kathleen and Eva

Azuka and friend

Safari ruins every good picture...

Auggie and Hektor of Livestock

Taurean of Lounge

Skam and Los of Livestock

Gavin and Lola

Livestock

Amanda

I see you in the window, Nadia! lol

In case you think you're cute...you aint. Just saying tho. High five? lol

Lissa, Kathleen and friend

Azuka and Coco

Alina

Andrew of Roundtable

Mean muggin' as always.

This pic makes me laugh.

Yessir

Makeeba (left) and friend

Nekita and friend

Shakes

Ok, Lo. I see you. lol

Lola and Ken Masters

Drizzy's home again.

Agile

Matt Babel and Alina

lmao

Nadia D and friend

Sarah and 3 glasses of wine???!!! Fuckin G!

I wonder what it said...

Andy of the Segment and Livestock

T-RexXx

Skinny Gucci and T-RexXx

Nekita and Sharob

Mr. Knocturnal aka Duane and Lo.

Waddup Harold?!

Look at Sharob's face! Looks like she just wet herself! lmao

Check me out on the left side of the pic! lmao

Ur smashed bro!

Addis and Azuka

Nebby...with that glass of Henny that she took from me. lol

Drex, Shakes and Lo

Crystal and friends

I have no idea who this guy is but his facial expression is pure marvel

Waddup Paul?

Rachel and friend

The other Jason...aka JT

lol

I have no idea whats happening here, but it looks hilarious

lmfao!!! Only I would post a pic of my face looking this stupid! lmao

This picture kills me! i dont even know who these two guys are! lmao

Thanks again for driving again! lol

Adla

Future and Ollie

Love ya, Lola! I missed you, glad your back sister bear.